Following Lot

Colleen and I plus baby flew out to Colorado a couple weekends ago... Do you know how beautiful it is there? I'm not talking about the mountains, or the sunsets, or the postcards you've received from cousin Billy on his trip over christmas break skiing with the youth group wearing a Vikings Starter jacket (locals always hated those guys)... I'm just talking about the simple beauty of clean air, wide streets, grass to lie down in, grocery stores with produce. Even the public transportation is zen like, those two-car half-empty electric trains zip by as though they rode on margerine. Sitting out on the porch with coffee, paper, baby in the bouncer and time. Why is it that time is so slow out there?

It's a beautiful place, people seem inherently good, their lives are in order, their houses are put in place, their jobs are secure, I can't say that it's easy, but it seems easy. Why is it that the city makes everything more complicated, why is it that getting through the week here seems monumental, when there the week slips by like a childhood memories. Case in point, when I look back all I can think about is the lake we walked around, the long easy dinners, the parking... parking as far as the eye can see.

How did we end up here? Why can't we be there? How about one of those jobs that is comfortable? When do we get to settle into that? That's what we've been struggling with since we got back.

The one feeling I couldn't shake though, something so deep it's hard to describe. I thought about what it would be like to walk in that green grass that lies right there on the other side, and it feels empty. Our church isn't there. My amazing job is not there, our neighborhood is certainly not there, the young kids we know here aren't there, Starfish, Breakthrough, and even Trader Joe's is not there, it's all those things that make up the fabric... all that adds up to one thing that is missing for us, what's not there, that keeps us here: God's anointing.

Abraham pleaded with God... "God do not send us out without your anointing"

So after the week of wondering what if, we are committing to what is... God's anointing.